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So as you are read- ng this, probably in the spring and summer of Uiy U T NS Ui eSS | IOYS UIRIY on it with the knowledge that folks interested in DIY publication and queer culture/counter- culture will have access to publications and ephemera that would just disappear by their very nature. At the time of this publication, we have almost 100 different zines online, all available for free to anyone. We are adding more every week, and will continue to do so for the foreseeable future. In the process of getting out and promoting soth Mutate and QZAP (and all of the other zine projects in my world), I've noficed a very nteresting phenomenon. | call it “Fear of A Well-Designed Zine.” When tabling at zine ‘estivals around the country, people seem very Aves: Jpring/fummer 1992: Operation: Rescue and Misionaries to the Pre-born invade Milwaukee, bringing tens of thousands of fundamentalist Christian protesters to women’ health clinics around the city. At the same time, my parents- rabbi gives a sermon explaining that it is our duty ars jews to help keep the clinics open. As a result, my whole family gets invelved pro- tecting Milwaukee'r clinics. "Aug. 6,1992 - In @ mar attack against a clinic in Brown Deer, WI, hundreds of Anti- Choice protesters get arrested, many of them children under the age of 18, Also tact anyone. Even without the interview, there’s a lot of awesome matefial in hete. J*K delivers yst again with a great pigce. about voluntary celibacy. My pal Mel has confributed an article about Suicide Girls and the nature of DIY porn, Miss Althaea writes about her amazing tools, and there ARE.a couple of musictbook reviews. Two of the pieces I've written are among my faves'in this ssue: In the centerfold, you'll find an updated "Hanky Code” that has taken me 3 years to out together, and I've also written a.piece about conscientious objection ahd selective ervice. Please, Please, Please, if'you afé & eenager, or have contact with young Gdilts sbout to turn 18, share this article with them. ] [ favcr\tes vah some Su:c;de !s other tracks that PDs ), later albums. Its really by mel h Painful the Videos that make 1, 3 . however, In many cases the audio is crap, but SuicideGirl.com really bums me out. held on this collection includes to my love for SG for a long time. My undergrad femi- concert footage, and aist porn teacher didn't even agree with my enthusi- Obvious transfers from ‘The Essential asm over the site. | just really wanted to cream my VHS of San Francisco feminist and forthicoming academic pants over this cable access programs. | also love the liner notes. e, 1¢s neat to read John's writing abbut the songs 1f you aren't familiar with the site, let me do , themselves, and why they were chosen. While | my best to summarize the loaded think all of the Pansy Division albums are, worth Sunk/indie/emo/goth-inspired gi s model in a pin-up purchasing, this and 1995's Pile Up should be ityle fashion. The photography is top notch. The girls * enough to show membership in The Cacksucker wre required to have some body modification to Club. nodel for SG. It appears there is a demand to be a Sulcide Girl. Anyone can apply to model online. In December | got a text message from Martin that The marketing for the site is a bit sickening. sa‘d | just saw Saint Morrissey at Books, Inc. and “normative beauty, Two, the users of the site are § pretty awesome. Users are allowed to Post on a variety of message boards. They also can post comments on a model’s personal area on the site. The com- ments left for the girls g0 no farther than say- ing how hot or beautiful the photos of the girls are. Many times users like to leave comments for the models about how s b oo —_— is 2 SG baok, a taating burlesqua show, and the afors mentioned merchandise for sale. This doesn't seem too anti-consumer to m inally, the most disturbing thing | found is left as my finale. The girls that look more punk than most of the models have had some of their photo sets taken down. Girls that enjoy-taking pictures with slood, and | think wéapons, were censored. | am not s0sitive what the sets looked like because | can only ssumpions on the photo sets’ title and sbscure image (to reel in users). Once | clicked on a sHoto set | believed was a bit hard core for the s ind sure enough; it was gone. The reason? Wall a cute sicture of Attorney General Alberto Gonzales shows 1p Whe the sexy sloody:photos once vere. The War on Sorn is blamed for the isoring, and SG Trent.. well, he's totally my boy-type. skinng and tall and tats. The soul patch uiduld Kave to go, though. Spike, Faye V: These sexy toons come from across thestars seeking boun-| andthey || tine, and Edward - "can have mine any day. ‘Spike, like I Object! It's an older tale, but one that | think needs to be told. Its about making sure that our lovely government here i the US knew me. Too many young people disappear under the radar, keep their noses clean, and never get to make their presence known to The Powers That Be. While I'm older and wiser now, and generally try to keep my ego in check, when | was ayoung mutant | was much bolder with my affil- iations and sense of self. —————— Starting at about the age of 13 01 14| began ta really think about war and paci- fism. | réad numerous books, | began to write a lit- tle,.and came to the conclu- sion thathwas, and still am, bt Teon Zn, Tyrn @Wy GEE Offss If you're like me, you probably grew up with popular culture as an influence on your life to some degree. Also, like me, your sexuality has probably been under the influence of same, Musicians, movie stars, celebrities and politicians may have played a partin your peryy fan- tasies. If you're a regular readerof ' Mutate, you may have noticed.that | often will take a page or two to spout my erotic fantasies of rockers who have . helped me play air guitar on my naughty t0.all wars, period. There is no such thing as a“good war” Most COs believe that all con- flcts can be solved through non-violent means. To register with Selective Service as 2 COis a process, but it's worthwhile, and once done, is permanent, I'm sure that in the process it § will put you on the Feds radar. I'd like to think that merelv o g i e e ot ey /& don't archive these letters but we will send you 3 liettar confirming we have received your letter. Keep that etter from us as part of your CO file. You can send your CO le.to the to be archived. 5) Coipile all of these documents and get them notarized. 5) Puttiem i a safe place and f you get drafted you can aresent this claim to your local draft board and your haihcéiof getting a CO exemption will be much stronger. fou need to build paper trail and document everything sossible that could help define you as a person who could 10t 0t war. If you go to any anti-war events, document ‘hem somehow as proof that you went, keep the fiyers, yave your photd taken at the event, etc. They basically vant to $ee that you are genuinely opposed to war, and not ust'someody who doésn't want to fight. You must be pposedto all wars, this doesn't mean you can't use vio- More and more 1 KNow THAT | my cockis there, QY F@TISHING: workingitsway THE enneR- under my skin and mcn?flffifik into my psyche. ITORE@.THAN THE Even when the sil- COCK. If L LIQS BORN WITH a Real cock; | woulp proBaBly Be fanTasizing aBoUT My SofT Rolling cunves. icone dong is thousands of miles ,away, it still pitch- esatentinmy “pants. Maybe | am sliding my fin- gers deftly into the silken folds of her radiant PUSETR TN R (N AR K abs [ r laces where the US had soldiers working to topple unfriendly” governments) \bout the same time all of this was happehiag, Lkept get- ing calls from recruiters for the various branches of the mil- ary. | kept asking them to remove my name from their sts, but they seemed to not hear me. Ultimately, | started elling them a small white lie, basically that | was gay, and oon after the phone calls stopped. t this point, | am still a CO, and believe that other COs, specially those who discover their conscience while in the litary are the biggest patriots and heros in our nations. If ou are male, and 17, o know someone who is, please share his with them. The small amount of time and energy it kes to file a CO claim is worth a lifetime of peace. ome Resources: HANDS OFFI Being Bought. Aint Thal Bad Unless Theyre Mine N g:.m.,m.\,,m.‘.,.,m,‘.,.!ix,‘;axzur by J8K with his nflA«ermmdlushowsdmklng’bfvinq;stfspk;;g Keys Up my nose, | enced U5 n htel bed with the o 1 have been ntentionally celibate since the endi of b0 2shelsex.he mansgedtocll me Meredith i what- December '05. This is the longest period of time | L,y g, 8 L0 L e e el have gone without sex (let's define that as enetra- him out on i cora-blown bran mearderige. tion, not a make-out session) in my adult life. Not Yes, and if that wasn't eriough from him, he went on to abad track record, considering I'm 37 years o, ertomembengautere, 4 . ‘Stumbled ino the bathroom he asked me, "How And, this has been by choice, NOt for ack Of OPPOT™ goe et e mese s oo e 254 tunity, if ya know what | mean. . 1 mean really. He couid ot make me feelashamed of any of my actions. His logic was since he paid extra money to have a lly-functioning, sexually mature, _ hotel room for us to share without his band members present Sowhy would a fully < Y then | was automatically the whore in thesituation. If his logic is body-confident woman in the prime of her sexual joen ‘I Semaral the wher life go down this road? Beyond my deal with him, | have always fantasized about being a prostitute, a stripper, or a nude model. | remember ost heart-wrenching break-up 've Sting na Prostute Lerature closs prafsng he prosttos n WeJI I had the m 9 P 'Adios Muchachos. She is powerful, beautiful, and taking advan- Quite frankly, who would want to be involved with me right now? | sure wouldn't. One thing | know for sure, the “transition person” is not an old wives’ tale (fook-inte the-erigins of that expression, which is awhole other topic | won't even touch now). It is for real, and no one should have to unwittingly or unwillingly play that role..as | did for the past year. Ineed to be my transition person. So there won't be any rolling around my king-size bed, or fumbling in back seats, or groping madly in the theater until the "All clear!” sounds. It wouldn't oe fair: to myself, and definitely, certainly, absolute- y not fair to my partner. think this means I'm a grown-up. People use all kinds of distractions to avoid the grief process: shopping, drinking, getting high, get- ting laid. | am glad that |, at last, have the aware- ness to know-thatf can't give justice to-another person's feelings and reeds right now and realize that it is just not right to use another in that capaci- ty, even if they volunteer for the job (which is self- abnegation, in my mind). When | do decide to unite with another wanting body - and | will - | anticipate it being an explosive experience. O, perhaps it will be a gentle and soothing evening of exploring tender new skin that grew over the places that my former lover left rough and tumbled.. Either way, | will know when | am ready t5 give without it being about distracting myself from pain. Quite frankly, who would want to be involved with me right now? | sure wouldn't. One thing | know for sure, the “transition person” is not an old wives’ tale (fookinte the origins of that expression, which is a whole other topic | won't even touch now). Itis for real, and no one should have to unwittingly or unwillingly play that role...as | did for the past year. Ineed to be my transition person. So there won't be any rolling around my king-size bed, or fumbling in back seats, o groping madly in #he theater until the "All clear!” sounds. It wouldn't be fair: to myself, and definitely, certainly, absolute- Iy not fair to my partner. I think this means 'm a grown-up. Being Bought. Aint That. Bad v v over o 0y ARG with his band. After muvflllli hours-drinking beér lwklng keys up my nose, | ended up in a hotel bed with the boring as hell sex, he managed to call me Meredith, ‘him out on his coke-blown brain meanderings. YYes, and if that wasn't enough from him, he went on to refer to me as being a whore. 1 mean really. He could not make me feel ashamed of any of my actions. His logic was since he paid extra money.to have a hotel room for us to share without his band members present then | was automatically the whore in the situation. If his logic is. sound, well then | have no qualms. Beyond'my deal with him, | have always fantasized Adios Muchachos. 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